Sunday, 7 December 2014

An Apology (To Myself)

I do this thing where I try something new, and if I'm not immediately amazing at it, I get really annoyed at myself.

Although I'm fully aware that practice makes perfect, that doesn't stop me being annoyed. If anything, it adds to my annoyance, because I'm annoyed that I even got annoyed at myself in the first place.

Do you see where I'm going with this?

All of this has basically led to a lot of procrastinating, and generally feeling crappy.

I start something new, and get annoyed because I'm bad at it. I go back to something I used to enjoy, and get annoyed that I'm not as good at it any more.

Team this with having nearly no free time, and things get pretty stressful.

I'm sorry, Sophia. I'm sorry that I put so much pressure on myself. I'm sorry that I haven't been working harder to be better at Python. I'm sorry that I haven't played guitar in months. I'm sorry that I have no time to paint/draw.

Perhaps my new years resolution will be to be more patient with myself.

Or perhaps I could start doing that right now.